Moment of Happiness

"We're all faced throughout our lives with agonizing decisions, moral choices. Some are on a grand scale, most of these choices are on lesser points. But we define ourselves by the choices we have made. We are, in fact, the sum total of our choices. Events unfold so unpredictably, so unfairly, Human happiness does not seem to be included in the design of creation. it is only we, with our capacity to love that give meaning to the indifferent universe. And yet, most human beings seem to have the ability to keep trying and even try to find joy from simple things, like their family, their work, and from the hope that future generations might understand more."

Professor Louis Levy in Crimes and Misdemeanors, a great movie. I watched it for my course, Evil.

I am very happy with my life now. I seem to be able to derive happiness from doing simple things like reading, enjoying the breeze, basking in the sunlight and talking under the shade. Somehow, time halts to a standstill. I feel more connected to my soul. It feels like falling in love. I am in love not with a person or a place but rather a moment, a transient entity that consists of everything that I can capture through my senses. More importantly, I have realised that by leaving the suffocating tropics, I have escaped temporarily from the great currents of Progress. By isolating myself from the pursuit of Success, I have gained greater access to my trueself. Maybe that's happiness.

Yet, I am aware that this moment won't last long. The weather will become unbearable one day. The readings might become boring one day. Even love fades away with time. What I can do is to enjoy every moment, feel blessed that I am fortunate to be here and aware that this state can end anytime in this indifferent universe.